When I started my last post, I actually planned on writing about my experiences with Sweet Cynic on Friday night (well, early Saturday morning). But the whole thing with Rumor Queen came to mind and I got off on a tangent. Funny how that happens, isn't it?
As I mentioned briefly, Sweet Cynic and Rumor Queen used to live together. In fact, they were roommates back when I tried dating Rumor Queen. At the time, Rumor Queen was constantly worried that I would decide to leave him in order to date Sweet Cynic instead.[1]
The thing is, I think Sweet Cynic is cute. In some ways, I suppose I'm attracted to him. But there were -- and likely still are -- things that keep me from considering him a serious option for love, which is admittedly a little frustrating. The thing with Sweet Cynic is that he tends to be prickly and it's hard to get close to him.
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Well, Friday night got very interesting, as I got ready to leave Home Bar. He started telling me how he has feelings for me and is pretty sure that I'm attracted to him, too. He got quite worked up over it. I stood there trying very hard not to get into an argument, but remaining non-committal. After all, I wasn't convinced that I'd be hearing the same story come Saturday morning once he had a good night's sleep and was sober again.
I will admit, we did end up fooling around a bit. He ended up kissing me and we made out. And, well, let's just say that I didn't extract my hand all that quickly when he took it and shoved them down the front of his shorts.[2] What can I say? I enjoyed myself.
So we talked a lot before I dropped him off at home and went back to my own place to sleep and see what the next day would bring. And the next day brought...pretty much what I expected. He never said anything about Friday night (well, other than saying that drinking so much was a huge mistake). And he started talking about problems he's been having with other guys. It's as if he doesn't even remember anything he said or did. And that's almost more frustrating than the whole "well, I'm sure it's just because he's drunk thing." It's now a "did he only do it because he was too drunk to even remember" thing.
Granted, I know it's just as well that I don't get involved with Sweet Cynic. As I said, he's hard to get close to. And considering I've watched him (again, drunkenly) proclaim various guys to be the best he's ever met one day only to announce that he found some horrible flaw with them and wants nothing to do with them less than a week later, I know I'm better off.[3] But all the same, the whole experience threw me for something of a loop.
Plus it's a shame....In addition to being good looking and somewhat fun to hang out with, he has a pretty nice package...
[1]As a side rant, let me make one thing perfectly clear: I am loyal and I never dump a guy for another guy. It's not my style, and I think that people who play that game will eventually get burned -- which they so richly deserve.
If I leave a guy, it's because there's something wrong with our relationship. Yes, that might mean that I'll find a guy pretty quickly after that -- hell, I won't even deny that I was already chatting up another guy (that one didn't go anywhere) before I officially told Rumor Queen that we were over. But if I had been happy with the way things were going with Rumor Queen -- or even had a sense that he was willing to do the necessary work to fix things -- I would still be with him. There's a difference between looking for someone different because you're not happy with your current relationship and constantly being on the look for a chance to "upgrade." Guys (and women, for that matter) would do well to make sure they grasp that difference.
[2]And no, contrary to what Rumor Queen might think, it doesn't mean I left him for Sweetly Cynic. All of this happened two months after he and I broke up -- which is twice as long as we were together in the first place.
[3]Though I admit that my twisted side does wonder what my "fatal flaw" would end up being.
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